“Kiss Me Deadly” by Generation X. It can get a fella to thinking, don’t you know. And this is what I think.
[Note: I wrote the following as part of a live event staged by Chicago's Blue Ribbon Glee Club at Live Wire Lounge, invited by the ever-heroic Liz Mason of Quimby's Bookstore. I read. They sang. Oooh... sorry you missed!
1. The first thing I think about when I think about “Kiss Me Deadly” by Generation X is the 1980 punk documentary D.O.A.: A Rite of Passage.
2. That movie’s poster is a real eye-popper and, for me, a pants-pooper. A painting depicts an archetypal punk girl lying scarily wide-eyed and up-close on a cobblestone road. Her skull necklace is askew and her little boob looks pointy in a leather holster. Above her, a green Rolls Royce looms menacingly. There’s a giant safety pin in its front tire.
As an eleven-year-old fascinated by every element represented in such an image, I found this poster terrifying. And yet, exactly like when my blood froze in horror of Kiss on NBC’s The Midnight Special five years earlier, I’d stare at the full-page D.O.A. ad in the Village Voice and only want more. Of EVERYTHING!
3. The D.O.A. poster only got scarier on the movie’s TV commercial. Picture this: a black screen opens with the sound of a screeching tire. Then it shock cuts to a close-up of the Manson-eyed punk chick and the camera pulls back to reveal the whole painting. A snarling voice then spits out, “D… O… A… A Rite of PASSAGE!... Now playing…” That was followed by the station’s regular motor-mouthed announcer blabbing: “Regular engagement now at the Waverly, midnight shows at area theaters. Check local listings!”
4. Among that era’s roster of too-terrifying-for-TV commercials that made it to the air anyway, D.O.A.’s was not in the rarified realm of Suspiria and Dawn of the Dead. But they only showed those recipes for instant PTSD late at night. The D.O.A. spot ran for a couple of weeks in the 5pm hour during New Jersey’s avant-garde vaudevillian kiddie program, The Uncle Floyd Show. That’s where I saw it. Over and over and over again.
5. For those not of a specific NYC-area vintage, The Uncle Floyd Show started as a typical afternoon time waster for tots. Floyd, however, proved to be a genuine oddball genius and, in short order, The Uncle Floyd Show became must-see TV for New York’s punk movement, as well as the only place that would give those groups airtime. Keep in mind that the Ramones never once played Saturday Night Live, but they were essentially the Uncle Floyd Show house band. So that’s how a kiddie show ended up running shock ads for “D… O… A… A Rite of PASSAGE!...” Thanks, Uncle Floyd!
6. This reminds me: David Bowie said that John Lennon turned him on to Floyd, whereupon Bowie and Iggy Pop became fanatical devotees, even turning up at the cast’s live appearances. Bowie even went so far as to write a super heavy-duty semi-requiem titled “Slip Away,” that addresses Uncle Floyd as a man whose greatness was failed by the times in which he lived. In the most cosmically tragic of contexts, “Slip Away” even mentions Floyd’s sidekick puppet Oogie. Uncle Floyd is still alive, by the way. He says he likes the song.
7. Okay, back to D.O.A. itself. I rented the movie shortly after we got a VCR in 1982 and I really liked it, realizing that, “Ah-ha! THAT’S where the follow-the-bouncing ball schtick came from that was used by the Queen Haters on SCTV!”
8. Has anything ever been greater than the Queen Haters on SCTV?
9. I also realized, not long after that, that the guy singing the new rock hit “White Wedding” was the same guy who, in D.O.A., sang “Kiss Me Deadly” with his band, Generation X.
10. Around this same time, I found a $50 bill on the street. I was supposed to be walking to church when—bam! A true miracle!—there, splayed out right before on the sidewalk, gleamed a cool, unclaimable half-a-C-note. Church got cancelled that afternoon. Instead, I just walked around for dreaming of how I’d enjoy my new fortune. Many of them involved Carvel ice cream.
11. My older cousin Mary Snow, who your grandparents may know as a longtime on-air correspondent for CNN, was at my house when I got home. She was attending Fordham University at the time and she tipped me off that Billy Idol was going to play a show at the Rathskeller the following weekend. It had been booked before “White Wedding” took off, and the campus wasn’t promoting it for fear of unruly mobs. They were even charging a princely $11 bucks to shoo away the riff-raff. “Mary, Mary, my cousin fair,” I said, majestically producing my happenstance fortune, “you and I no longer count among the riff-raff!”
12. As I lacked an older brother from whom to learn the rudiments of cool, my cousin Mary Snow filled the bill deftly. She took me to see the Ramones at Rutgers University when I was eleven and the live Uncle Floyd Show revue—which was FILTHY—at several different venues throughout the next couple of years. I told you Mary Snow was cool.
13. Thus I went to see Billy Idol at Fordham the next week with Mary Snow. Alas, we didn’t SEE shit or really hear anything either: the Rathskellar was Great-White-circa-2003 packed and the sound system could hardly handle the sheer sonic might of a Billy Idol. Maybe he played “Kiss Me Deadly.” I have NO idea. He definitely played “Dancing With Myself,” though, because that’s when I yelled at Mary’s cool college friends, “You know what this song’s ABOUT, right?” Then I made the universal jerk-off sign.
14. A year later, I eyeballed Billy Idol in person when he was doing a signing at Tower Records. I went to high school just a few blocks away, so a couple of hearty chums and I walked over to assess the scene. Huge throngs assembled but, from across the street, you could clearly get a gander at Idol up on an autograph stage, flanked by MTV’s Mark Goodman and his foxy-mama rock DJ wife, Carol Miller. Hubba-Hub-BAH!
15. In addition to being the female head-of-household at “102-point-7 WNEW-FM, where rock lives,” Carol Miller was also a lawyer who once actively campaigned to get Bruce Springsteen’s “Born to Run” named the official state song of New Jersey. As with so many other compositions by the Boss, “Born to Run” is exclusively about screaming, “Get the hell out of New Jersey!” That, of course, only deepens my profound love… of New Jersey.
16. At one point during the Tower Records appearance, Billy Idol looked at the mass of humanity in our direction, did his signature lip curl, and raised a fist. Every fist on the block followed suit. It was so cool that, being 15, my friends and I all had to pretend it was soooooo lame.
17. Every couple of minutes, a passerby would ask, “Hey, who’s the big crowd here to see?” Our big joke was to answer, “Menudo.” And, INVARIABLY, every one of them responded, “Ah, that’s what I THOUGHT!”
18. The following week, I attempted to romantically impress Samantha Mulligan by telling her I raised my fist at Billy Idol and then the ten thousand people followed my lead and then he raised his fist right back specifically at me. Samantha was a lifelong friend and pseudo-family member who effectively grew up alongside me as a first cousin. Regardless, she didn’t buy my story. Spectacularly, she didn’t buy it. In a crowd of our peers, she didn’t buy it. And, with each blistering humiliation Samantha Mulligan spewed back debunking my bogus claim of rock salute spearheading, I was more determined than ever to marry her.
19. My real-life, present-day wife thinks nothing is more pathetically hilarious than the fact that, aside from the cheerleader to whom I lost my virginity in exchange for a pair of boots like Madonna wore in Desperately Seeking Susan, the only girls I dated during high school were all, in essence, my cousins. My wife, of course, is correct in her assessment.
20. This is about “Kiss Me Deadly” by Generation X, right? Yeah. Okay, so the next time I saw D.O.A.: A Rite of Passage was on New Year’s Eve 1987. I was with Webigail, a goth chick I’d met at a Ramones concert where she told me she was telepathic. That made me want to marry her maybe even more than I had wanted to marry the last cousin who had dumped me the previous summer.
21. Webigail and I thought “Kiss Me Deadly” by Generation X was really romantic. It brought us back to that night we first met, when the Ramones brought out the area bad kids and the space aliens Webigail could see in the treetops assured her I’d be her one true love.
22. The space aliens, I am subsequently happy to report, proved incorrect.
23. Generation X was a really good band and, among the innumerable reasons to homicidally despise author Douglas Coupland in the early 1990s was for sullying their legacy with his stupid bowel movement of a book, Generation X.
24. I tried to work up some of that anti-Coupland rage anew while writing this piece, but it felt like getting mad all over again at somebody who lethally shit up your bathroom 25 years ago and thought the death-stink was cute. I mean, it’s possible, but why? We’re fume-AND-Douglas-Coupland-free today, so let’s just LIVE, dammit! You know, Douglas Coupland can go lick Tama Janowitz’s menopause and tell Jay MacInerny the news!
25. Having been born in 1968 and growing into young adult hood a sneering, flannel-clad, grunge-fanatic, zine-publisher, I spent much of the early ’90s looking up from my Peter Bagge Hate comics and barking through Rolling Rock breath, “Fuck, NO! I am not a member of so-called GENERATION X!” This is akin to, a couple of decades later, when my five-year-old niece Molly told me, “You look like a hippie hipster!” I said, “Hey! What makes you say that?” And then, wordlessly, Molly just pointed to my beard, my oversized retro eyeglasses, my plaid shirt, and my tattoos.
26. “Kiss Me Deadly”’s pleasant, liltingly melancholy opening guitar licks always make me think it’s “Mama, I’m Coming Home” by Ozzy Osbourne. Lemmy wrote that for Ozzy, don’t you know, to give to Sharon as a peace offering. And it worked! Where’s Lemmy’s Nobel Prize NOW?
27. Ozzy rules! Lemmy rules! Billy Idol rules! Quimby’s rules! Liz Mason rules! And those are the 27 things I think about when I think about “Kiss Me Deadly” by Generation X!
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Heavy metal and high-thrill cinema have been joined together like mutant twins since before Black Sabbath took the name of a chilling Italian horror film in 1970. The unadulterated journey of Heavy Metal Moviesspans concert movies and trippy midnight flicks, inspirational depictions of ancient times and future apocalypses, and raw hand-held digital video obsessions. As brash, irreverent, and visceral as both the music and the movies themselves, Heavy Metal Movies is the ultimate guidebook to the complete molten musical cinema experience.
Exploding with over 666 (almost two times over) of the most intense movies of all-time, featuring:
Headbanger classics: This Is Spinal Tap, Heavy Metal Parking Lot, Trick or Treat, Black Roses, Black Sabbath, The Decline and Fall of Western Civilization 2: The Metal Years, Rock ‘N Roll Nightmare, The Dungeonmaster, River’s Edge, Gummo, Lord of the Rings, Over the Edge, RoboCop, Saw, Savage Streets, The Toxic Avenger, Hard Rock Zombies, The Phantom of Paradise, Airheads, Evilspeak, Evil Dead, The Devil’s Rejects, Monster Dog, The Wicker Man…
Disturbing documentaries: Metal: A Headbanger’s Journey, Some Kind of Monster, Paradise Lost, Faces of Death…
Bulging barbarians: Conan the Destroyer, Clash of the Titans, The Sword and The Sorcerer…
Satanic shockers: The Exorcist, Rosemary’s Baby, The Devils, House of 1000 Corpses…
Splattery slashers: Maniac, Halloween, My Bloody Valentine, Sleepaway Camp…
Post-nuke dystopias: Mad Max, Blade Runner, The Road Warrior, Megaforce, Zardoz, Land of Doom,Death Race 2000, Planet of the Apes…
Carnivorous chunk-blowers: Cannibal Holocaust, Cannibal Ferox, Bloodsucking Freaks…
Undead gut-munchers: Zombie, Dawn of the Dead, Burial Ground, Dead/Alive…
Midnight mind-benders: Eraserhead, The Holy Mountain, Caligula, The Warriors, Repo: The Genetic Opera…
Concert films and killer cameos by Ozzy Osbourne, Black Sabbath, Judas Priest, Iron Maiden, Napalm Death, Godflesh, White Zombie, Alice Cooper, Helmet, Cannibal Corpse, Kiss, Powermad, and countless fake hair metal bands who end up getting killed onscreen…
Plus witches, werewolves, bikers, aliens, lesbian vampires, and vengeful vikings galore, over 1300 sin-ematic sensations in all.
Brooklyn-born Mike “McBeardo” McPadden is the head writer of the online phenomenon Mr. Skin. In addition to years of freelance journalism (Esquire, Black Book, New York Press), and more than a decade as a Hustler editor and correspondent, Mr. McPadden has also done time as a B-movie screenwriter. He lives in Chicago with his wife, xoJane.com editor Rachel McPadden.
When it comes to rock music, the surname “Smith” almost always makes me reach for my bird-flipper, as it’s most commonly associated with Patti (with an “I”), Robert (with a fright wig), and fuckin’ Morrissey (with no dick up his ass where at least one really ought to be).
Now I’m not going to declare that the Patti Smith Group or the Cure or the Smiths as quote-unquote “BAD” music, per se.
It’s just not for me.
Because it’s Chick Music.
And Chick Music is just fine.
Like celebrity gossip, astrology and the pre-coital claim “I don’t even think I CAN get pregnant,” stuff like Patti Smith, The Cure, and Morrissey is, you know… for Chicks.
Into that ghetto, I’d also cattle-car Siouxsie and the Banshees, Bauhaus, Gang of Four, New Order, Echo and the Bunnymen—or, as I call them, Chicko and the Bunny Non-Men—and pretty much the entirety of ’80s European new wave, maybe most especially Depeche Mode.
Kill Mother Fucking Depeche Mode. That’s what I say.
But then I also say that KMFDM is also, very much, Chick Music.
Of any gender.
I write now though, to single out music that most definitely did not deserve the Chick Music pass—or any other kind of pass—but to which I not only acquiesced … I actually maybe pretended not to despise it.
Because a lady and/or ladies might have been present.
And if music be the food of love, I’ll lie for a mouthful every time.
I’ll rattle these off in backwards chronological order, roughly descending from least to most pathetic.
If you’re me.
Gerard Cosloy was playing at The Cooler, a basement club in New York’s Meat Packing District.
Gerard was one of my heroes: founder of the record label Matador, publisher of the landmark music-hating music zine Conflict, and an unvarnished New York media curmudgeon who endlessly offended terribly sensitive whom I enjoyed seeing offended.
Gerard also played guitar in a band called Envelope.
Envelope was some of the most deadly awful shit you could ever hope to not hear.
So at least, at the Cooler this one night, it was just going to be Gerard solo.
To accompany me, I asked this Nordic pixie-type with sawed-off Tomahawk Missile warheads in her Bratmobile t-shirt named AHH-NA. Her name was spelled A-N-A, but she pronounced it like that: AHH-NA.
Part THREE in a Series of THREE (or So) in conjunction with my new book, IF YOU LIKE METALLICA….
6.66 Some Head’s Not Gonna Roll
McBeardo loves all comers. Make no mistake.
But allow me to declare with neither pride nor shame, but as mere fact that, for all my libertine free-swingin’—including those periods before, during, and after my hard stint in the crotch-rock battalion Gays in the Military—that I just don’t gaze upon the simple form of another man, naked or otherwise, and think, “Yeeeeaahhhh… stubble and pectorals and teste-sweat… that’s for ME!”
That stated, much of my life has been spent in raging envy over the instantaneous and/or anonymous orgasm exchange opportunities availed to those penis bearers whose primary motivation is acquiring more bare penis.
Lo, the Urban Homosexual, Genus: Male.
Come July 1993, I wasn’t lacking for opposite sex fluid-exchangers.
The magic potion for being able to approach females proved to be served by the pitcher at Downtown Beirut and, more and more often for me, peddled in plastic packets from behind the pinball machine at the Full Moon Saloon on Eighth Avenue.
Still, I couldn’t just walk into a bar laden with ladies, drop trou, and leave spermily satiated several sucktastic moments later.
Such easy access remained the sole domain of The GAY and, psycho-emotive biology be damned, I wanted in on those boys’ never-ending free blowjob party.
If it was dark enough—how would my wang even know? And if I was drunk enough—why would my wang even care? That’s what I (and my wang) figured.
Thus the momentous occasion arrived when, fortifying myself with a succession of 40-ounce Colt 45’s, I set out one evening to finally make that leap, loin-first. Past midnight on a Saturday, I walked toward Manhattan’s hilariously and then-accurately named Meat-Packing
The Vault, a bondage club I could get into for free with my fancy Screw magazine writer credentials, was in the area, and I knew those dark, tranny-hooker-lined streets housed countless rawhide nelly arenas behind mammoth steel doors that would give Leatherface the whim-whams.
Blaring from my Walkman for this journey: Judas Priest.
Patrolling those dark 11th Avenue sidewalks in headphones, a Priest mix rang in my ears with thematic song-by-song specificity:
Most pointedly, the playlist concluded with 1977’s “Here Come the Tears.”
And so, Judas Priest ablaze on cassette, I guzzled the rest of my malt liquor, steeled myself and approached one door into and out of which spilled prospective nameless orifi.
And then I froze. The door was closed. I couldn’t bear to open it.
So I just stood for a moment.
Then enough to have to rewind the Judas Pries tape.
Finally, just as I lurched forward, the door burst open, wide, and it hit me.
The MUSK of MAN.
My nervous system had been assaulted infinite times by jackhammer wafts of men in sexual frenzy at Live Nude Girl peeps shows, but here there were no girls—live, nude, or otherwise—to offset the olfactory affront.
This MUSK was man, ALL Man, NUDE Man, AROUSED Nude Man, and nothing but—b-u-t-t—Aroused Nude Man.
The frying-pan-to-the-proboscis effect was rippling… musclebound… RECTAL…. and testorized to the point that I swear I felt the fumage pry openmy very nostrils and, already all lubed up, slide deeper than anything else every had up inside my sinus cavities.
My sniffer, alas, seemed to be directly connected to my nether regions and a total systemic disconnect overrode the operation.
I withered in the fumy bath of Man Musk and sauntered off, forced to accept that not even the might of Judas Priest could overpower my addiction to my own carnal wiring.
And, there, came the tears.
HAIL BENT FOR LEATHER!
The shindig went down at Salon Tress.
In addition to stupefyingly great readings by the other participants Rachel McPadden, Katie Rife, Nithin Kalvakota,Dan Gleason, Gregory Jacobsen, Bob Goblin—as well as high metal air guitar virtuosity by Nordic Thunder and Cannonball Mavin—I read the preceding composition.
Nay, Palm Death: What Is the Perfect Brutal Soundtrack for Peepshow Piss Lesbians at 3:30AM on a Thursday in 1990?
Part Two in a Series of Three (or So)
5.5. NAY, PALM DEATH!
Aside repeatedly catching Blind Fury with Rutger Hauer at various 42nd Street grindhouses, Summer 1990 sucked and blew and sucked-blew.
During one particularly grievous nadir, a failed effort to rekindle a shattered romance prompted me to seek solace where any free, white, and healthy 21-year-old might: in the peep shows alongside all those grindhouses where I’d been watching Rutger Hauer.
It was ridiculously late, like 3:30 in the morning on a Thursday.
That meant almost all the LIVE! NUDE! GIRLS! had vamoosed until the next day’s first commuter rush, and I only had limited funds left anyway after squiring my ex out for drinks and rejection, in that exact order.
So my plan was to cozy up in a Peepland video booth for visual succor by way of German piss lesbians.
During busy day-parts, Peepland’s sound system normally blared techno or salsa or whatever the present New York disco radio outlet was.
At this juncture, though, the mop jockey set it on one of the shitbag Classic Rock stations and then, suddenly, louder than life and/or a million little deaths, the air quaked with Crosby, Stills, and Nash singing “Our House/ Is a very, very, very fine house!”
I couldn’t whack off with that song playing.
I’d love to meet the man who could, because THERE, ladies and gentlemen, would be a true pervert.
But even beyond “Our House”’s lilting harpsichord and airy harmonies and Graham Nash’s lovely invocation of the hippie cottage he set up with Joni Mitchell (BLECCCH!!!), I was in a vile public masturbatorium at a godless hour to get relief from the assurance overwhelming me that NO woman, anywhere, would ever set up house with me.
Not even Joni Mitchell.
It made for a solid soundtrack to a groovy hate self-fuck.
But, still, I needed more.
With my one free hand, I tossed Big Black and put in Napalm Death’s Mentally Murdered tape.
Even more obliterating.
While the happy frauleins on-screen simultaneously relieved themselves and quenched their thirsts, Napalm Death pummeled my ear-drums to the very direst pits of my anti-soul and, before my last 40-seconds-for-a-dollar ran out, I was done.
Zipping up, I realized I hit upon a bold new formula for giddy self-annihilation, however (unfortunately) temporary.
Death metal plus illegal foreign pornography consumed outside the home equals cosmic numbness equals peace. Or some dead version of peace, anyway, which is what I was after.
The porn peeps would always be there (I thought).
Napalm Death had proven effective in creating an atmosphere of thunderous homi/suicidal rapture unto orgasm.
Still, I wondered if I could go further.
And that’s how I got into Deicide.
HAIL GLEN BENTON’S SCARIFICATION!
The shindig went down at Salon Tress. In addition to stupefyingly great readings by the other participants Rachel McPadden, Katie Rife, Nithin Kalvakota,Dan Gleason, Gregory Jacobsen, Bob Goblin—as well as high metal air guitar virtuosity by Nordic Thunder and Cannonball Mavin—I read the preceding composition.
Still to come: SOME HEAD’S NOT GONNA ROLL!
The shindig went down at Salon Tress. In addition to stupefyingly great readings by the other participants Rachel McPadden, Katie Rife, Nithin Kalvakota, Dan Gleason, Gregory Jacobsen, Bob Goblin—as well as reality metal air guitar virtuosity by Nordic Thunder and Cannonball Mavin—I read the following compositions.
1. Rosemary’s Brooklyn Baby
The film Rosemary’s Baby debuted in theaters on June 12, 1968. I was a mere womb banger at the time, waiting to debut myself two months and nine days later.
The woman brewing me in utero, Moms McBeardo, was a stick-skinny blonde with wide blue eyes who already bore resemblance to Mia Farrow, the Rosemary of Rosemary’s Baby.
Since Moms was hugely pregnant when the movie came out, fri ends and strangers alike commented on how much she looked like Mia. Her choice to sport a boy’s haircut, as Ms. Farrow famously did on screen, and don psychedelic print maternity frocks of the day only further drove home the doppelgangerism— AND THEN SHE FLIPPED HER PIXIE-CUT EVERY TIME PEOPLE POINTED OUT THE RESEMBLANCE!
This is akin to a knuckledhead who used to drink at a bar I frequented called Dowtown Beirut. He was fat guy with a huge jet-black pompadour, who’d wear giant wraparound sunglasses, and he’d order drinks with a southern accent and then say, “Thankyu vurrrry muchhh.” Every so often, you’d be sitting there, and all of a sudden you’d hear this goofball explode, “DON’T CALL ME ELVIS!”
This characteristic of Moms’s, however, is telling. She certainly passed it on to me. By age four, I was a full-blown fanatic of Dracula and Frankenstein and their ilk and it large part it was because they TERRIFIED me. I’d stock my bedroom with scary posters and fright masks, then I’d lie awake, petrified at the reality I MADE of being stuck alone in a den of monstrosities.
And that’s not even counting the fact that, from infancy onward, an image of Satan hung on my wall. He was getting his horned skull stomped by St. Michael the Archangel, but still…. And who placed that picture there? Who else? My own blessed mother.
HAIL LIL’ SATAN!
2. One Tin Boner
During a 1977 folk mass at my fantastically cool Uncle Freddie’s church in Cedar Grove, New Jersey the congregation sang “One Tin Soldier”. It was the theme song from the drive-in masterpiece Billy Jack and had since become massive pop radio hit. The words say there won’t be any trumpet blowin’, but the church actually had a trumpet blower that day.
Prior to that, the name group that performed “One Tin Soldier” always freaked me out Coven and with good reason: they were called Coven and they were the actual first Satanic rock band!
I’ve long lamented the ’70s brand of post-Vatican II Catholicism in which I was raised. Gone was the blood-and-thunder Son of a Vengeful God Jesus; now the Savior was like this Divine Flower Child who just loved the little children of the world. And in place of black-clad priests swinging incense and chanting in Latin, we now had groovy nuns strumming acoustic guitars under felt banners of fish and rainbows.
Some Garden State usurper snuck a taste of the Old One True Faith into the liturgy that day though, by way of a band whose debut album is titled Witchcraft Destroys Minds and Reaps Souls—again, a position with which the Church of Rome would hardly be at odds.
“One Tin Soldier” lays out a thoroughly Biblical tale of greed-driven genocide in the name of hypocritical righteousness.
“Go ahead and hate your neighbor/Go ahead and cheat a friend/Do it in the name of Heaven/You can justify it in the end…”
The gravity of the words never struck me until, at age eight, I read the lyrics off the mimeographed hymnal.
Eight years old or not, that’s some heavy shit, man.
The song condemns humanity wholesale as evil and irredeemable. It damns us. It really, really damns us. Just like the Church used to. It felt so damned good to be damned DAMNED that morning.
Years later, I’d try to revive that feeling of giddy perdition while making love to a photo of Coven singer Jinx Dawson in the gatefold of that Witchcraft album.
The Nordic blonde sorceress and Indiana native is splayed out nude as a human altar during a Satanic black mass. Many a sacrifice have I made to Jinx Dawson’s graven image.
Just recently, the Chicago Sun-Times ran a photo of me with an interview regarding IF YOU LIKE METALLICA. I’m wearing a Coven t-shirt in it, emblazoned with that very naked black mass photo.
Jinx herself wrote to me on Facebook:
“My Dearest Mike: I was so aroused to see thee wearing that irreverent Coven t-shirt. Thou art truly most wicked!”
So all’s well that’s ends well in a puddle at your feet. And then in a sock.
HAIL JINX! HAIL BILLY! HAIL THE KIDS AT THE FREEDOM SCHOOL!
3. KISS Your Pants
KISS scared the piss out of me on The Midnight Special in 1978. Not instantaneously—I didn’t just explode urine on the spot as I watched Gene Simmons spit blood and Wolfman Jack go, “All right, babies! Yeah! Spittin’ blood, babies! Allriiight! Breathing fiiii-yah! Yeah! Ahwoooo!”—but I immediately turned the TV off and went to bed, praying to not think about KISS. I awoke in the morning with soaked pajamas.
Until then, KISS existed on my radar only tangentially. My pot-smoking, longhaired uncles, on whom I relied for access to the rock world, laughed them off as clowns and it only the most unappealingly unwashed kids I knew would write “K-I-S-S” on their gym sneakers.
Summer 1978 brought with it a KISS onslaught, however. While my focus remained primarily on the Grease soundtrack and Meat Loaf’s Bat Out of Hell—the title of which I kept hoping my mother wouldn’t catch on to—I now felt myself drawn to the spook-show Kabuki supervillains whose Destroyer album blared through the very air itself
wherever you went and who were now peddling dolls during cartoons on TV and about to star in their own Hanna-Barbera-produced TV movie.
One afternoon I amassed enough skee-ball tickets at the Fun City arcade in Keansburg, New Jersey to get something better than a back-scratcher (which means the points must have numbered in the millions).
Trading in my torn-off bounty for prizes, I asked the lady at the counter for the requisite 500-year-old Bazooka bubblegum and some plastic spider rings that immediately sliced into your finger and then, before I could stop myself, I said, “And a pack of KISS cards!”
What had I just done?
Frozen and excited at the same time, I hauled my loot to the dunes along Raritan Bay, opened the cards and looked at them one by one. Loving them. Loathing them. I actually said out loud: “I hate KISS. But, secretly, I like them.” Then I buried the cards in the sand, making sure the spot would be easy to remember, as it now housed evil.
Afterward, I walked up along the shoreline and wrote “KISS STINKS” in the wet sand and watched the tide wash the words away.
Like a prayer.
Fuck you, Madonna.
HAIL THE DEMON! THE STAR CHILD! THE SPACE ACE! THE CATMAN!
HAIL THE PHANTOM OF THE PARK!
4. Stairway to My Sweet Satan
The music of Led Zeppelin scared me as a kid, but the adolescent hoodlums bedecked in Led Zeppelin baseball jerseys scared me way worse.
Zeppelin seemed like the natural teenage soundtrack to stolen car joyrides and stray cat back alley executions by fire—dirtbag music for the sort of dirtbag who’d stuff you in a bag and bury in the dirt—sixty-six-point-six feet under.
“Stairway to Heaven,” however, loomed inevitable.
Shortly before my eighth grade graduation, the Daily News reported that various reverse record-spinners had cracked a backward message in “Stairway to Heaven” that stated: “Here’s to my sweet Satan/ the one who’s little path would make me sad/He will give those with him six-six-six/said Satan.”
For a spell, then, this expose put me off “Stairway to Heaven.” Alas, there came the Our Lady Help of Christians graduation dance.
An OLHC alumnus in a Panama Red t-shirt spun platters that included hits of the day, but tilted heavy toward the 8-Track collection everybody’s seed-and-stem-flecked older brother. Just before midnight (of course), the DJ announced that we had come to the last song: “Stairway to Heaven.”
I had just been shaking my non-moneymaker to “I Love Rock-N-Roll” with a quiet classmate named Ann Martin. This presented an opportunity for us to slow dance. No passing that up.
Alas, I found a solution: I waltzed to “Stairway to Heaven” with Ann Martin while, in my head, I rapid-fired off round after round of “Hail Mary”’s. When it got to the “there’s two paths you can go by” part—where the backward message was located—I upped the volume of my inner paens to the Blessed Mother so high as to drown out whatever coded bedazzlement might have been trying to violate my psyche and imperil my mortal soul.
Maybe it worked. I suppose, one day, I’ll find out. For sure.
HAIL OUR LADY HELP OF CHRISTIANS VS. SATAN!
4.4. Say You Love Satan—With Lasers
Throughout my high school years, the Hayden Planetarium drew ganja-zonked denim wearers en masse to its various weekend night laser shows. I saw them all: Laser Floyd, Laser Zeppelin, Laser Rush, Laser Van Halen, Laser Who, even Laser The Police.
The one, and only one, I passed on, however, was Laser Sabbath. I truly believed that if anything could conjure the Dark Lord
in the ungodly flesh it was the collective loose-joint-unhinged consciousness gathered in cabal before the alchemical technology of light-beams shaped like Pentagrams.
I was so terrified of Laser Sabbath, in fact, I couldn’t even listen to the radio commercial for it. I’d hear this bottomless-pit-deep voice announce, “Ron Delsner and the Hayden Planetarium Present….” And I’d have to shut it off, pray, and then down to my basement lair so I could watch and re-watch Faces of Death just before masturbating to Traci Lords videos, relieved and confident in the knowledge that I dodged undying hellfire.
Until the next dodge.
HAIL SATAN, MOST PARTICULARLY IN TRACI LORDS FORM!
Next up: making love to German piss lesbians accompanied by Napalm Death, and the might of Judas Priest vs. The Musk of Naked Man.
Long time, no nothin’.
Here’s the deal, hombres y mamis: although you’ve no doubt been enamored with my fineness in print by way of The Factsheet Five Zine Reader, Bubblegum Music Is the Naked Truth, The Official Heavy Metal Book of Lists, Mr. Skin’s Skincyclopedia, and Mr. Skin’s Skintastic Video Guide (along with some bizarre anthology the name of which I can’t remember that reprinted my Devil in Miss Jones 5 screenplay), several books either existing now or on the way also bear Hard and Heavy McBeardness
Two such efforts will even have my very own name on the byline!
If You Like Metallica… by Mike McPadden (Hal Leonard Books) launches June 1. Get ready for a shill-acking campaign nonpareil. Even if the merest flicker of a thought about Lars Ulrich curdle your body-milk, remember that this book is me—McBEARDO! #1!—writing finger-loose and fancy free about metal, punk, classic rock, stoner doom, industrial, and nipple rings in a Ride the Lightning t-shirt circa 1986. YOU will ride the lightning… in your pants!
Heavy Metal Movies by Mike McPadden. I’m writing this definitive thrashterpiece for the mighty Bazillion Points. It a leviathan in progress, to be delivered from Ian Christe and Company to your grabby mitts in spring 2013. “Like” HEAVY METAL MOVIES on Facebook and love me, love me, love me as I labor on this giant.
The Official Book of Sex, Drugs, and Rock-N-Roll Lists (Soft Skull Press) by Judy McGuire features my chapter-length contribution on the best Rock-N-Roll Porno Movies.
And then… when all the crust is settled, I’m going to expand Madonna Boots into a full-blown memoir/manifesto regarding Teenage Romance.
What’s keeping all of you out there busy? HAH?!
NOTE: This article has been written to accompany a screening of BLOODSUCKING FREAKS hosted by me—McBeardo! #1!—on Saturday, October 8 at midnight at Facets Multimedia in Chicago.
Bone up here now and be there then.
You won’t believe the eye.
Nine minutes into Bloodsucking Freaks (1976), a giddy dwarf on stage in a theater hacksaws through the wrist off a screaming nude blonde. He removes her hand, kisses it and holds it aloft in triumph.
The well-dressed audience in attendance applauds.
“Now the eye, Ralphus!” instructs the saturnine Master of Ceremonies, and the dwarf reaches into the weeping victim’s ocular cavity, plucks out her meaty, dripping peeper, and pops it into his mouth. Then he chews it up and swallows it—right on camera.
Again, the hoity-toity audience applauds.
As stated: you won’t believe it.
But there it is.
The events described hereafter take place two years after what went down in that first piece.
A few key pieces of information: A) Madonna Boots is the nickname of the blonde cheerleader from New Jersey to whom I lost my virginity, and B) between 1985 and 1987, I managed to drop about 150 pounds off my delicate frame, roughly cutting my overall bulk in half.
It didn’t help. As you can find out below.
The last time I saw Madonna Boots was on November 27, 1987. It was the day after Thanksgiving.
Bootsy, as she liked to be called, was a freshman at Montclair State University in New Jersey. I was in my third semester at the State University of New York at Purchase, a public arts academy in endlessly dull Westchester County, just north of New York City.
I ran the college radio station, which got me a lot of free records and an abusable telephone.
While not going to class and not getting laid, I phoned Madonna Boots at school as the holiday season started. Things had gotten that bad. Since arriving at college, I had not so much as accidentally bumped knees with a female. No dates. No kissing. No hand-holding. Nothing.
For that, I lost 150 pounds?
Dottie was a ballet major who looked a ’50s advertising drawing of a spunky, strawberry-blonde scamp. She talked kooky and she liked the Monkees and my Hawaiian shirts and we both had the complete Weird Al Yankovic discography and we immediately hit it off. Just not enough (for me).
People assumed Dottie and I were a couple for the first few months of school, which both delighted and depressed me: on the one hand, it meant I was perceived as human enough to have a girlfriend; but in reality, she wasn’t actually my Girlfriend From Mars, so the fact of my subhumanism remained unevolved.
Dottie sashayed in and sat on my lap.
I freaked. Bad. But not outwardly. I just barely kept it together enough to not jump up and go hide in a corner. Here was the very first moment in my entire 18 years that a girl was expressing genuine attraction to me. Ho. Lee. Shit.